Still Hope?

Well, I am struggling too much these days not because of outside but just because of myself as I have decided not to read anything till the pressure is going up to irresistible limit besides knowing that it is going to affect my future plans in every way......got bala'sir quizz two copy and I did very bad, got only 5 out of 10 besides knowing everything of the paper what can I do man...What I am feeling about myself that I did very bad everywhere in last lap of the race which is also reflecting here and it shows I am very much poor in rapid section of every show.Generally I loose my confidence and concentration if there is less time remaining and I feel myself unable to solve even a very simple problem just feeling out of the way during that period. And the problem what I have sorted out is not to read properly or more clearly thouroughly before any exam, in general before any exam I try my best to clear every concept related to topic and just appear in exam without much thinking and practice of the problem on the topic to be examined and in that way I make myself less confident in every way which has very much dominating effect when there is less time to think in examination hall.Here I have strong belief that these are just because of not doing hard work, in the sense proper thinking on the topic and more practice on the topic related problems, and hope so I am going to remove these weaknesses next time in a very positive way(Inshaallah).
And nowdays I am very much thinking of making my future work in the area of high temperature materials mainly superalloys and intermetallics not just because of it is quite interesting and related to my semester and M.Tech. project but also the fact that rare earth materials are going to make a place there, for example 'Neodymium–cerium oxide as new thermal barrier coating material ' (Hui et al) is having very good property as TBC materaial. And I am also very much interested to know the cause of brittle bahaviour of intermetallic compounds because of this making these materials unwanted to be used at high temperature otherwise having all the good property to used as a high temperature materials.And I also want to know what is the reason for high oxygen solubility of Ti, Zr, and Hf which is not understood till yet.
I am closing this by placing a high quality proverb 'It is not necessary to win everytime but trying everytime till win'.
Hoping best to all,
Ajeet